Craziest week ever

My week without internet nearly killed me, but I'm still alive to tell about it. Far worse than that, I recieved news earlier this week that my maternal grandmother has been diagnosed with congestive heart failure after a minor heart attack, and my paternal grandmother was rushed into emergency surgery last night because of an anurism on her aeortic artery. I am heart broken. I've been beating myself up over the fact that I've not called my dad's mom, my grandma Della, since Thanksgiving, and now she can't even breathe for herself. I know it's not my fault, but I should have been a better granddaughter. And this is to be a short note, because I can't seem to find any words to write tonight.