I have been debating something all day long, and I've finally come to a decision. I've got some news that is hard for me to share. I'm trying to lose weight. While this may not seem like a big deal to some people, it's very difficult for me to talk about it publicly. I didn't know whether to blog about it or not to, because if I talk about it and fail miserably I'll hate myself, I'll be disappointed, and I probably won't be able to show my face again. But I thought that if I did talk about it, it would be the accountability that I needed to keep me on track. While I have a friend who I am sharing this journey with, I still felt I needed something extra to kick me in the ass and keep me moving.
Many things have sparked this desire to get healthy, number one being my children. They deserve a mother who will be able to play tag with them and walk all over the zoo with them, not me who gets out of breath walking to the bathroom. I've been telling myself that I'm fine the way I am, that I don't need to be thin to be happy, but it's not about being thin. At least not totally. It's about being healthy and feeling like I actually did something good for myself for once.
Then there was the fact that none of my clothes fit anymore. That can make any one's self-esteem plummet. And, more recently, the lady in WalMart letting me know I was too overweight for regular bread...
And there's the wedding. I'm going to be the maid-of-honor at one of my best friends' wedding. I'm so happy for her, but I'm absolutely dreading showing my fat arms and spare tire in the fitted dress. So I made a decision the other day. I realized that I'm not going to lose any weight just talking about it, that I needed to just get up and do it. So I did.
I am only human, so I will most definitely disappoint myself and everyone around me at least once. But I do promise to give this my very best. I will be posting about my progress, my feelings, and my daily life on a more regular basis. I really hope that I can find the strength in myself to do this, and I appreciate any love and support from anyone who might be reading this.
Lots of kisses and slimming waistlines
Cassi
fill me in on what youre doing and how its going dear!! im sure you'll look even more fabulous in no time ;)
ReplyDeleteMy first day went really well, and I'm excited for what's in store for me over the next few months. I'll be posting (or trying to)every day, so keep on the look out!
ReplyDeleteHey there I found you via Edenland. I blog, but I am not a mom. That said I do identify with this post and with the struggle to lose weight. Good for you for posting, it will help motivate you and as someone who currently is off the diet wagon and needs to get back on it remember to be kind to yourself when you do have a slip up and just start again the next day. Good luck Sharron :)
ReplyDelete@Sharron Thank you so much for the encouragement! Recently I hit a road block when I was diagnosed with having kidney stones, but I'm itching to get started again. It was so nice to log in and see a comment from a fellow diet-struggler, and I only hope that maybe seeing my ramblings will be an inspiration to someone who has a hard time with diet and exercise like I do. I hope you have a blessed day, Sharron! ;)
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