Thursday, June 23, 2011

It's been a helluva couple weeks

I'm sorry for the lack of posting lately. I've been so tired, in so much pain. I wasn't able to have my surgery last week due to insurance issues, but I'm going in tomorrow first thing! I'm just so drained, and I feel totally useless because I can't do alot. And the worst thing? I can't control my damn bladder! I'm 21 stinking years old, and I can't hold my bladder when I have to pee. It's worse than being nine months pregnant. Ridiculous.

Whatever. I'm having this stupid stent out tomorrow morning.

I am nervous, again. This always seems to happen to me, though. I got all pumped for my wisdom tooth surgery, and couldn't because of insurance. Got myself all pumped for kidney surgery and couldn't have it. Because of insurance. Grrr! I just want to feel normal again. I hate feeling like I have no control over my own body. But, I have to have this procedure. It has to happen. So tomorrow is for sure. I'm just nervous. I haven't quite got to the point where I am comfortable with that thought yet...

4 comments:

  1. :( im sorry things didnt work out w.the last time you were supposed to get the surgery! thatd bug me soooo much lol but i feel you w.not knowin whats really goin on w.your body. i keep having issues and things will get better, then go back to hell. keep your chin up momma!

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  2. Get well soon, hope all goes well for you

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  3. @Sharron Thank you so much for the kind thoughts! It means so much to me <3

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